Trouble Sleeping

I've been having trouble falling asleep for awhile now. I wasn't sure why at first, but lately as I lie in bed all I can think about are the atrocities going on in the world and how my life and its joys are in such stark contrast to the despair and depravity of the majority of the lives in the world. I am repulsed by our culture and its fickle ideals and corrupt dreams. I hate that so much of me is influenced by it and that I daily place so much importance in things that ultimately just don't matter.

I spent $30.00 on a vegetable steamer so it's easier for me to make Amelia's baby food and I spend $35.00 a month supporting a little boy named Ariet in Africa. Do I really need the steamer? That was food and an education for another child. I'm burdened by our wealth, and though I'm very thankful for it and for the comfort of our lives, I'm so confused as to why I have so much when so many have not enough. Truly the first will be last. I'll be elated if I get a little patch of heaven. The widow in Africa will have the mansion.

Our culture has also made it hard for me to stand for any sort of absolute idea and has made me afraid to fully express my faith and the way I believe it asks me to live my life. Our culture is big on fear as a motivation, as is the current administration.

I feel now is a good time to issue an official apology for voting for Bush. I don't think I need to say much more than that. We're all aware of how he has betrayed our trust and ultimately this country and the people of Iraq, our soldiers, our poor...

I'm just frustrated at seeing so much injustice everywhere. I'm not completely sure how to handle it or what to do about it. And so, I have trouble falling asleep.

Moving Along

Well, unfortunately, we did not end up getting the house we put the back-up contract on. The primary contract went through. Oh well. Jason and I are okay with not having such a big responsibility yet. We found a great 3BR duplex that even has 2 bathrooms! Wow. We signed a 2 year lease - which will be the longest amount of time we have lived in one place since we got married. Actually, now that I think about it, that will be the longest I've lived in one place since I left home. In college I moved every year too. That was the the nicest part about possibly buying a house, imagining living somewhere a long time. Well, for now two years is a good start.

Jason's Guest Post

Pictures
Here is a link to pictures that I think everyone should see. (all of them)
These are the kinds of pictures that come to my head what I "suffer" through watching McRomnIani "debate".

What do these pictures make you think?

Jason

There's a Mouse in our House

I made the terrifying discovery today that we have a little mouse living in our basement. I made this discovery when I watched it run across the floor while feeding Amelia some Mango. I screamed like a little girl, which made Amelia's lower lip quiver. I had to reassure her that everything was all right. But it's not alright. I'm sorry, I just can't not be grossed out and a tad bit frightened of this little creature. I hope I can sleep tonight. Maybe my cat can earn his keep this evening. It's so funny, as much as I don't want the little guy in our house, I also don't want to kill him. This complicates things. Sadly, he will probably have to die to be removed from our home, but, maybe Jason with his ninja like quickness can catch him in something and put him outside.

And for the record, my dog, just laid there and watched the thing run around. Thanks a lot Sophie. Thanks a lot.