Okay, no longer in a fragile state...at least today =) The last couple of weeks have been good. Things at Ted's Montana Grill are looking up and I no longer plan on quitting. I applied at 8 other places from pier one to doggy day care, but in the end I haven't followed up on one of them. I think Ted's is the place. So the work situation is back on track, I love living in the same town as Jason...life is good.
Jason's parents met my parents for the first time last weekend, and it was fabulous. Everyone got along so well and it was so special to see Jason and I's love bringing these two world's together. It was really cool. The start of something new and big! It made us want to get married now. There's this little wedding chapel in Nashville pretty close to Jason's house...don't worry, we just can't do it. I don't really know how we're going to make it until January though. Right now it's fine, but next semester is probably going to be the hardest 4 months of our lives. But hey, that's still 2 months away.
Okay, so there's one thing bothering me here now and it's not Ted's, it's not traffic, heck, it's not even the rainy weather. It's my roommate. This girl is really challenging me and I'm praying SO hard to see her and love her like Jesus does. There's a conflict surrounding the air conditioner. A couple times during the two weeks we've lived together I was finding the thermostat at an icy 69 degrees. Hello! It's not even hot yet! So, since I've been wearing a sweatshirt and jeans inside my own home, in June, I decided to ask her if we could come to some sort of compromise. The other girl that lives with us kept just turning the air completely off, and that's not the solution. Frankly I'm deathly afraid to see our utility bill this month. Anyway, I asked her if we could compromise a little. She got really defensive talking about how she works out in her room, she pays more for rent and deserves to be comfortable. Okay, well, could be put it at 75 or 76? Um no, she looked at me as though I had two heads and said that was way too hot to keep a house. Okay, how about 74? 72- okay, 73. So, 73 it is. Well, it hasn't been all that warm lately and she's gone all day long because she works an hour a way. So, my other roommate and I have been turning it up while she's been gone because we're cold and also because we're not rich. Well, last night she noticed that it was up and asked me about it. I explained that it hasn't been that hot and we're trying to save on the electricity bill yah dah, yah dah yah dah. Bad news. I apologized for not repsecting our agreement and then tried to explain where I was coming from. She's a 35 year old pharmacist, I'm a 21 year-old waitress trying to make enough money to not have to work my last semester of school. She proceeds to tell me she's paying more for rent, she deserves to be comfortable, she doesn't care if I have to pay more and if I have to work next semester, she had to work her way through school. Jason was sitting next to me throughout the entire discussion and at one point I had to cover his mouth so he wouldn't say anything he'd regret. It was really hard. Basically from it all I've learned that the only thing that really matters to this woman is her, her comfort, her problems, her. Never mind me being comfortable in the house in my layers of clothing, as long as she's comfy everything is fine. Nevermind my concerns about my financial situation, I should buck up and pay for her to be comfortable, even if it means not saving as much money as I wanted to for my last semester of school Really, I don't matter, oh, and I don't work hard either. Last night I was upset about the whole thing and when I woke up this morning I was just plain pissed. I feel very disrespected by it all, and I'm not sure if I've given the situation justice. I'm not sure if I should tell her how disrespected I feel, or if it's even worth it. I'm praying about how to handle this person I've been thrown into a living situation with. A person I never would have chosen on my own. Crazy stuff.
Life is good, despite the challenging circumstances that come. I am blessed beyond measure and I truly long to take joy in my circumstances, to consider it pure joy when I face trials of many kinds, because the testing of my faith produces perseverance, and perseverance must finish its work so that I am complete, not lacking anything! Praise God. Until next time...