Quote

I came across this quote today and felt pretty cool about the title of my blog!

“What we call the beginning is often the end. And to make an end is to make a beginning. The end is where we start from.” - T.S. Eliot

Question

Have you ever wondered if you're crazy, like truly off your rocker, and all of your life your parents have been paying people to be your friends and treat you like you're normal?

Me neither...

It's not that I actually think I'm insane, though sleep deprivation has made me a little unsafe at times lately in my opinion. I guess I wonder because I have moments of clarity when I realize I'm not nearly as self-aware as I think I am. I can think I know how to be a good friend, a good wife, a good mother, a good employee, but then I'm presented with situations where my limitations are brought right before my face.

I don't think at any moment that I have it all together, nor do I genuinely think such an ideal is possible. I would like to think I'm capable of being someone who is reliable in all of the above mentioned roles, but sometimes I wonder. I'm a recovering perfectionist, so maybe (probably) my standards for myself are impossible. I guess I just really don't want to suck, and sometimes it is very evident that I do.