Suzie the Subaru

We bought a car! Yay! I felt like such a grown-up, talking the salesman down, signing lots of papers. I am really excited. Now I just need somewhere to drive =)

Life Continues

Our wonderful friends Chad and Sarah visited us this weekend! We had a very enjoyable time doing random things together. The great thing about these friends of ours is that there are no great expectations for our time together. We can truly enjoy hanging out in the house, playing a board game, watching stupid movies while making fun of them, drinking bacardi raz (which I can now drink again =) ) exploring Target, and most importantly, eating ice cream sundaes for dinner at Michelle's in downtown Colorado Springs. It was a fabulous weekend filled with not-so-fabulous activities, it's just that great to hang out with them. (If any of you decide to come visit us here I promise I'll dote on your visit too)

My mom was here last weekend and that was a very good thing. She grocery shopped and cooked many good dishes for us to eat and freeze to eat later. I'm so glad she was able to come. She hung out with me while I was pretty much bound to the couch and we had lots of good conversations. Mom's are great.

It snowed last week, and I missed my prime picture moments. If it snows again, I promise I'll show you all the pretty snow and the pretty mountains. I like seeing mountains every day, I must say.

Jason is busy at work reviewing tons of applications from college kids who want to spend the summer overseas. I only worked half days last week, but this week I'm gonna try to do the full time thing. My body has been a little slower to recover than I had thought it would be, but this weekend I am much stronger than last weekend, and that encourages me. My pants are fitting fairly well again, and that excites me greatly, as vain as that is. So, we're getting into the swing of life again and it's going pretty well. My hormones have been playing some dirty tricks here and there, but ultimately I feel like I'm doing well all around. It's strange re-planning my life from June on now, but I'm trying to focus on the positive and the doors that are now open that had closed due to coming motherhood. I've been given another chance to pursue anything I want, and I'm thinking long and hard about just what that is. One thing I know I want is to run the Denver marathon in October. It's a new goal and something I really want to accomplish while I can. Jason and I are going to start the training as soon as my doctor okays me to run again, which should be mid-February. Now I'm walking and I'm going to start lifting a little this week. I'm excited! Jason doubts I'll really stick with it, and I must say, that motivates me more than anything to follow through! I'll keep you posted on the progress.

One more thing, we got a couch and a coffee table this weekend! I am so excited about them and somehow feel more like an adult having a couch instead of just a futon. Yay

Goodbye Miles

I write this post with much sadness, but not without hope, and not without love and peace in my heart and all around me.
Yesterday we lost our little baby. I really had a feeling it was a boy, and it was too small to tell, so we named him Miles as we had planned for a boy. He was very small, too small in fact. I was 19 weeks pregnant, but he was only the size of a 13 week old fetus. Something was not right, and so we are thankful that he did not have to suffer and that it happened now for us and not later. We are grieving this loss, and as we have never lost before, we don't know how long it will take or what the days ahead hold for us emotionally or spiritually. However, we have been so blessed and overwhelmed by the outpouring of love and support from our family and friends all across the world, and it has been precious to have tears of grief joined by tears of gratitude and love for the support we have.
God has not been absent in this, and even though I don't understand why he gave us this life to begin with, since he knew what would be, I am comforted at the thought of Miles knowing no life but one with God. We felt God's grace and presence with us strongly as we faced the day yesterday. My labor went very quickly, just as we prayed it would when the nurse told us it would take 8-12 hours. God knew how much we could bear and he gave us an amazing doctor who I loved, and will love seeing again, wonderful nurses, and the easiest and quickest labor I could have had. There will be many confused prayers of anger and of despair in my future, but I am sure that this will only make my faith stronger and it has already made our marriage stronger as this has pulled Jason and I closer than we've ever been before.
We are so thankful for our friends and family and so comforted that we don't have to grieve alone. We have much hope and we know that we will get through this and pray we come out stronger through it in faith, hope and in love.

We Have Arrived

Look at our cute new House!

Big backyard for Sophie Dog

A washer and dryer in my house! Yay!
Bathroom
Jason and I's love den
Music Room/Office
Guest Bedroom - Come visit us!
Kitchen, with a dishwasher-bonus!
Kitchen/Breakfast Nook

Front Room


We are so excited about this new little house. It's only a 10 minute drive to work and is literally 1 minute away from downtown Colorado Springs. We have a old neighbor across the street named Earl who has lived in his house for 72 years. He is awesome. There are dogs and cats everywhere so Sophie and Pedro fit right in. There's a bridge down the street that goes over the highway into a big park. We really couldn't have asked to find a better place for us and we feel really blessed. My wonderful mom house hunted with me last Friday and Saturday and after looking at countless sketchy places and places that just weren't right, we landed on this house. It kind of became a no brainer but it was an exhausting search. I don't know how I would have made it without my mom here to help me, and then my brother Chris came with Jason with our stuff. Both of them helping us made such a huge difference. Without them I think I would still be cleaning this place! My mom literally spent about 5 hours cleaning only the bathroom. Gross

Jason started work officially today and I'm having a meeting with my boss this afternoon-hopefully to iron out some sort of real job description. I think I'm going to be helping with Eagle Lake a lot, even though I'm director of the Day Camp. It's cool, as long as I stay busy.
I'm not sure how long it's going to take to adjust to living here or how long it will take for it to truly feel like home, but we're excited to be here and we know we're in the right place, and that feels really good.